a little bit dazed
8:03 PM | Friday, October 31, 2008
my week passed like a whirlwind. it all went too fast before everything even had a chance to sink in. as i have probably mentioned (too lazy to check) in my previous post, this week's hellweek. exams on the maximum level. the exams itself was torture enough. and i refuse to talk about it. reliving the moments even pains me. ha ha. okey, overrated.
on the serious note, my lola had an operation last tuesday. i don't know why she got operated and i don't want to know. all i know is that it's just a minor thing and i am emotionally supporting her, we all are. but seeing my lola, you woudn't be worried that much as she was too happy to get operated. she was even anticipating the moment. last week she got a check up, and right after the doctor told her she needs to get an operation, she enthusiastically asked the doctor if she could get the operation on that same day. lol. i don't know whats with those needles and incisions she felt so excited about. anyway, after 48 hours in the hospital, she was discharged and here she is now at home, fully recovered and feeling like nothing happened. by that, i am trully admiring this fragile-looking fellow. (:
that was the lighter side of the week.
okey, so the night before my lola got discharged (btw, it's my lola from my mom's side since my other lola died when my father was young), we got a call from my cousin. i got the call and he asked for my dad, i felt something wrong with his voice, like something bad happened. so when my father got the phone on the extension (i was using the phone in my room), i didn't put the phone just yet. i eavesdropped for a while.. it was then that i heard my cousin's voice breaking down. he was saying something about his mother and something about the hospital. i placed the phone down and i asked my father what's wrong afterwards. and so, apparently, my auntie (dad's sister) was brought to the hospital. she had a stroke. when my father got home, he said that all my auntie could do was move her hands.
so this auntie, we were pretty tight when i was younger. back then, thay had a lot of small-time business and she did splurge a lot for me. she bought my first mountain bike, i mean bikes. she bought me two at the same time. she was also the one who bought me my first badminton racket (those ones that cost 1k+). she even gave my father the first cellphone we ever had in the family (a Nokia 3210 - old times) she gave me everything i would ask for. but then their shops closed one by one until there was nothing left. she stopped giving me things but i still kept visiting their house. i remember those times when she would be doing laundry and i was beside her in those wide laundry pails, half my body submerged in the water and me treating the pail as my bath tub. those times when she let me watch their cable, let me play the computer, and she'd tell me ghost stories. but growing up, we kind of grew apart. her son had kids, new people to spend her time with and me being the teenager, i focused on other things. but nevertheless, she played a huge part of my childhood.
first day of the two-day 'sembreak' i woke up with my mother telling me she died.
a part of me knew it would happen (i have a strong instinct on these kind of things). i went back to bed, puzzled. until this blog, i never greived. she was a jolly person that i knew she wouldn't want to see me crying over her. until this blog that is. what's just sad is that the last time a talked to her was a month ago, and i wan't even able to say goodbye to her properly. if only i'd known it would be my last goodbye to her.. but she's such a good person, i am sure she's with God right now. she may not be with us physically anymore, but i am sure she'll forever be in our hearts. my parent's went to her wake last night, they told me it had a jolly atmosphere. just how my auntie would've wanted it to be. (':
this is hard. not having someone to talk about these kind of stuffs. it is awkward to talk about these things with my parents. and just stupid if i talk to my sister about these things. haha. that's why i have always wanted an older sister/brother. but anyway, this is my only way of letting these things out. to my other cousins (mom's side, since you're the ones who usually read my crap :P) please please don't tell my mother about this. and your mothers since they are bound to tell my mother anyway. she doesn't even know i have a blog (too old for diaries. haha) so please please please, pretty please. may whatever you read here stay between the both of us. cause once she'll know, she'll drag me to those mature, adult conversations again, which i am not in the mood for. so please?
that is all.
Happy Halloween, btw.
go go go POKEPRESIDENTS
9:53 AM | Saturday, October 25, 2008
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA :D
here we go
5:44 PM | Friday, October 24, 2008
obviously, new layout :D
simple one this time. and added feature on my blog. lookie on the left. its a music area. :D i'll be updating that area with songs i am currently liking. right now it's Ready, Set, Go by Tokio Hotel. :D
blogger is pissing me. it takes around 5 days before the blog i posted appears on the site. even the changes in the templates too. blaah. FIXX IT BLOGGER!
hellweek's next week. three days and then two days off from school - "sembreak" as they call it. ha!
i have been pretty busy trying to get requirements from different college universities. gaah, i can't believe it. its just a matter of months and im off to college. it seems that it was only yesterday when i started high school. T.T
A LITTLE TOO NOT
NOVEMBER 11 YET.
i can't wait for 11/11. i am dying to have the album. blaaah. and all these song previews makes me more and more anxious. wee~
snippets.
9:04 PM | Sunday, October 19, 2008
HEY!
i hate my layout right now. i am changing it, soon. the i-need-to-see-white syndrome is coming back to me. oh yes. yea, changing the layout soon when i get time. dark for me is just too depressing.
i am in a great want of a
wayfarer. kill me now, i have no idea why. and i want mine white. i will be getting one
soon. bahahaha
i have facebook now. haha. i just wanted to share. :D and why does my post take like 24 hours or more to show up in my blog after i post it? stupid blogger, go fix your server or whatever things that needs fixing.
23 more days until the David Archuleta Album. i am darn excited. :D it comes our 3 days before my beloved birthday. perfect timing. its either they give it to me as a gift or i can ask money to buy it. perfect perfect. and since last week, there are been songs that have been leaked over the internet. a 1 minute 30 seconds preview of the songs 'My Hands', 'Touch My Hands' and 'A Little Too Not Over You'. My Hands and A Little Too Not Over You i love but
Touch My Hands is just stupid. i feel free to blurt this out now cause i have read from some website that
it has been confirmed that both 'hands' songs were not written by David. now really, Touch My Hands is just so blah. the lyrics are a wee bit cheesy. seeing someone from the stage. not wanting the song he's singing to end so he can still see her face. her reaching out to the stage and him wanting to touch his hands with hers. LMAO. okey i loved the beat. when i first heard the two songs, i initially liked Touch My Hands then a day after i went looking around for lyrics and when i finally found one.. HAHAHAHA. my thoughts were that
a) it was written by Archie himself and there really is this girl (which i really found stupid cause if i do like a person, i woudn't blurt it all out in a song most especially if i didn't know the person's identity since many would want to assume on the subject) or
b) Jive asked David to sing this song to win fans over and giving them an idea that there is someone who has seen David sing live who has David's affections - and then the assuming issue again. and between the two choices in my head, i would bet 90% on choice B and voala.. LOL. if you won't believe me this song's corny, here's the lyrics:
Saw you from the distance
Something bout the look in your eyes
Something bout your beautiful face
In a sea people
There is only you
I never knew what this song was about
But suddenly know I do
(chorus)
Try to reach out to you touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you and the band
Try to reach out to you touch my hand
Cant let the music stop Cant let this feeling end Cause if I do it will all be over Ill never see you again
Cant let the music stop Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it will all be over
Ill never get the chance again
Ill never get the chance again
told yah it was cheesy. but nevertheless i still want that CD! rarrrr XD
ohmydavid. i suddenly remembered i had to do something. dang, i hate school.
this shall be continued. on some other succeeding posts.
BYE (:
All you need is love.
11:48 AM | Saturday, October 11, 2008
here to do another movie review. i just finished watching this one.
ACROSS THE UNIVERSE.
this is basically a movie in which the characters and the plot are based from songs of Beatles. when you say a musical type of movie, it's usual that the plot is made before the songs so it would fit better to the scenes. but in this movie, it's the other way around. the songs were there long way before the movie was even started.. making it a bit challenging for the writers but nevertheless, the writers of this movie came up with a very good story that showcased a lot of well-known Beatles' songs. i appreciate them more given their situation.
and so, well. i just started loving the Beatles this year. i mean, i've heard some of their classics as my father loved playing his tape of the Beatles over and over when i was younger. and then, there were also some songs that i was familiar with but i didn't know they were sang by the Beatles. American Idol pretty much introduced me to THE Beatles. i remember the two consecutive weeks in which their theme was songs from the Beatles. and i have favorites from them, and my most favorite of all is Across the Universe. yea, no lie. Across the Universe for me is a song i listen to whenever i get confused with life and all that cause it just reminds me that everything's going to be okey and nothing can change my world. uhuh. and having my most favorite Beatles song as the title of the movie, pumped me up a bit more. haha.
the movie, obviously advocated the end of wars and showed the lives that war can damage. the characters were so unique from each other. and they all magically make one hell of a good ensemble of characters in the movie. yes. and the scenes in the movie were always full of colors.. there never was a dull scene. it's just all too lovely.
my favorite song that was interpreted in the movie however, was Let It Be sang by a black child in the middle of the Vietnamese war. it was just so pure, so filled with emotion that i couldn't keep myself from tearing up. now when i was watching that part, i instantly remembered seeing this short clip of him sitting behind a wrecked car in the middle of war being showed at one episode of Ellen Degeneres Show. it was just too beautiful.
and so yea, the movie also had some songs i liked, like If I Fell, Strawberry Fields Forever, Come Together.. i also enjoyed the I am a Walrus part. haha.
and yea, i am officially loving Jim Sturgess. from 21 to this. yes, i do love him and his movies.
so that's it.. you should watch this movie, especially those who love the Beatles. (:
