it's July. and it's my blog-versary! i've been talking pointlessly, online for the past two years now. talk about dedication. hahaha. happy two years, pointless writing.

seriously, when i first started out blogging, i didn't have an idea of what i should write or talk about. or whether people will be interested. as you can see in my waaaay older posts, they were usually about reviews on books, movies, shows and whatthehells. i wasn't able to grasp the idea of blogging, yet. yes, a tyro to the immense world of blogging.

but then i slowly learned how to use my blogging powers to something bigger and more meaningful that what i've been already doing. i've learned to open up, post my feelings, my thoughts, my opinions on greater thnigs. something i don't quite do much, verbally.

i started out thinking that at one point, i'd just lose interest in blogging, that it was just a in-the-moment kind of thing.. but i kept my online banters going on, and on, and on.. for guess what? two years, now! and the thing that really got me hooked on to blogging is my power to monologue. no one to make me hold my tongue back. and that's something in life, i think i have been missing.

i talk. a lot. i am very much capable of being loquacious. but on an impersonal level. i can talk a lot about common and obvious things but i usually hold back in talking about the things that are actually running in my head. i am an obsessive over-thinker, there are obviously a lot going on in that office run by brain cells at the top of my head. but they never quite make it to the level of articulation. it mostly never does. and the only people who i am able to talk about these things can just be counted. so be fucking happy whenever i present an argument to your case. hahaha you are part of the chosen ones. lol.

people who know me personally would think that what im talking about right now is bullshit. since i am usually very blunt whenever people ask me about my opinions. but i am just usually very open when you try to ask me shallow watered questions.. you know, things that won't actually matter in the long run. it is only here that i allow people to get into my deeper thoughts about the bigger picture, on how i see life, on the things i aspire, the things i look up to. no matter how nonsense they could be at times, i never hold back in writing when it hits me hard.

i grew up not having someone to talk to. i never had at least just one person to open up about my thoughts.. maybe that's why up til now, i've still yet to learn on how to open up to other people. but im glad my blog is here to at least help me out. one way or another, i am opening up here, to other people, some that i may know, and some just curious strangers.

i don't care whether people actually read my crap at all. what's important to me is that i was actually able to get these things out of my head. this blog was not made to be read, it was made to be written. but i am very thankful to my constant readers. you can't imagine how it makes me feel knowing that some people actually do appreciate my talkings.

and so for my blog-day wish,
I wish that I improve as a blogger and that I may have more blog writing years to come.
(: