i am so high, i can hear heaven
1:34 PM | Monday, June 02, 2008
when I was a little girl
i swore that i would change the world
when I grew up,
nothing else would be enough.
i see it everyday
we settle for safe and lose ourselves along the way
cause if you don’t dream big, what’s the use of dreaming?
if you don’t have faith, there’s nothing worth believing it takes wild hope to make the stars worth reaching for. so reach out for something more.
-Dream Big ; Emily Shackleton/David Cook
and so it goes. i was listening to this song again and again and it pretty much hit me all the time. everyone has dreams and as i have learned, the dreams that we have as children are the purest ones since we don’t get influenced by things around us, we pretty much spoke from the deepest desires of our hearts. i knew that when i was a little girl, I swore to myself that I would become a Marine Biologist cause i have discovered my inner fondness of the water and my strong desire to preserve the marine life. water is something i have been so passionate about. but as years went, my perspective in life changed.
as much as I want to pursue something i am passionate about,
life ain’t that easy. we have to cope up with the needs of the present and deal with the reality that sometimes, we have to give up something we want for ourselves, for the greater good.
i am talking about the number of young people who are forced by surrounding factors to take up Nursing instead of doing what they really want to do in life. they do this for the sake of their families so they could financially help them and keep up with the growing needs of the present. to work abroad and eventually bring the rest of our families along to escape the situation we have in the Philippines with this kind of government. let’s face it, we all want to live in a place where we feel secured and at peace and the Philippines is not really the best place you want to be when it comes to that.
everywhere you look you find homeless people, jobless people and people who resort to vices to ease their selves up from all their misfortunes and problems they are facing. is this the ideal kind of place to live in? hell no. and i personally blame the government for destroying the dreams of the young people. if the people in the government focus on helping those in need and making this place a better one more than helping themselves corrupt money to satisfy their greed, i don’t think we would be forced to take up courses to secure us jobs that can make us get away from this damned place.
LIFE – DREAMS = JOB.
-EurekaBut on the lighter note, I have realized that nursing isn’t a bad course. keeping those financial reasons away from my mind, i can see the benefits of having this kind of job. i can say that i am one of those people who like to help people and see what effects we can do by our small help. and what more way to make people happy than to save lives? i know that other jobs can also help other people but in an indirect way. I personally would like to take a front row seat and help them in a direct way and also see how happy i can make them feel, directly. and I am also a type of person who is interested in learning stories of people’s lives and being a nurse, you get the opportunity to interact with people and get to know their stories. just thinking about it already makes me feel happy.
so yea, that’s the way i deal with this things, by thinking of the positive side. cause it is important to do something for the rest of your life that you yourself are happy with. and recently, i can see a clearer picture of myself in the position i am aiming to be at in the future. hopefully.
so my dream now is to be in a place in the future where I am able to make other people happy and myself as well.
and as far as water goes, i am helping by being the Drip Watch at home. i hate hearing those sounds of dripping water. it’s not that i don’t like the sound but it’s the idea that people actually allow water to drip when they know that that water could be saved. think of the other people in the world who are not as fortunate as us to have good water supply, so please for pete’s sake, save water. not many know this but dripping water is my ultimate pet peeve.
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i wrote this one on MS WORD 3 days ago. we lost our internet connection because of the unknown. the Broadband people were supposed to come check our router today but when i tried turning on the router this morning, it connected. stupid router. so yeaa. welcome me back.
it's almost classes and i don't like it.my colds are coming and going. i can't understand it.
my Npower(MP4), which i named Lil Bitch (in honor of Kevin of TheOC whom i totally love.. and i'll be seeing as James in Twlight Movie),
and i have developed this weird connection. you know those times when you'd want to hear this kind of music and just that kind of music? well Lil Bitch's always on shuffle and whenever i want to hear a kind of music, i just select one song of that genre and leave if shuffled, and it'd play songs i would want to hear. but there are times though that i would like hearing slow songs and in a middle of a slow songs succession a rock song manages to cut through. rarr. haha.
i've been sleeping a lot lately. i miss American Idol. rarr
