tonight i am feeling blog-ish so i am going to blog about something that i don't usually blog about. my constant readers may have noticed that here, i only talk about thing that's been up in my life and some random reviews of books or movies. well now, i am going to give you a piece of my reflective side. many may not know but i really am a reflective person. every once in a while i think about certain things and try to understand what they mean to me. i usually do this every night after i pray in bed. bedtime gives me this weird feeling of peace of mind.

so, last night as i was looking for something in my cabinet, i came across this dusty notebook i used to have when i was in Grade 6. back when my name was spelled 'Mae Ann'. i was flipping through pages and i was laughing along as i saw some stupid things i wrote back then. from how i hated Malfoy for bullying Harry Potter (see, things change cause apparently, i love Malfoy now) to some unintelligible scribbles to really stupid love webs i made with my classmates' names on it.

then i started to recall how little i know of the world back then. i do remember feeling that i already knew much that time, that i was matured enough. but now in retrospect, i can tell i was just being so silly. hahaha. feeling like i knew so much about the world. silly me. but then again, my world before was already complicated, i have experienced my fair share of fears, disappointments, pressure and self pity even in that young age. i can't imagine how much they put on me with the fact that i was only 12. hell much.

and then i thought about the moment i stepped on my current school back when i was in 1st year. really, though i keep saying i hate school (i do hate school. the part when you do all the studying, answering exams, assignments and iw.), i love it too. i love the part of it when you get to open your eyes to things that were happening to the current generation. in my old school, it was like we were stuck in this tiny little bubble where the outside view was so dim and shady that all you can do is look at the things inside of it. but moving to this new school bursted this tiny little bubble and showed me things that were just too vague for me too see when i was inside it.

some might say it's their way of protecting us but i really don't think it works. shunning things for us can only make us ignorant. and ignorant people easily get curious. it's better to be well informed on the things that may also harm you cause at the end of the day, no matter how people try to protect you from them, the decision of protecting yourself from them is really just up to you.

and there really are a lot of things i've learned from where i am going to now. and a lot of people i've met too. people of different way of upbringing, of different attitudes, all in the same place. when they say "Experiences make you the person you are today", it's not entirely true cause EXPERIENCES AND THE PEOPLE YOU SHARE THEM WITH MAKE YOU WHO YOU ARE TODAY.

it's really amazing how i got to meet these people and found friends from them. and bestfriends for keeps too. people who were mere strangers to me back then. hahaha. that's why last night, after flipping through that old notebook, i sent messages to people who were close to me. i told them how i remember the first time we met and how we met and all that. and some were pretty hilarious. hahahahaha. oh well. those people may not reaize but they mean a lot to me (:

but highschool's gonna be over pretty soon.
all the laughters, tears & drama. oh god, now that i think of it, i'll be missing all of it. cause the next level's obviously gonna be different. so yea, goodluck to everything ahead of us. cause we do need luck in this world. (: