7:20 PM | Tuesday, May 17, 2011
The reason why I have stayed single for all 18 years of life on earth is not because I'm afraid. It's not because I'm choosy. It's not because I'm trying to play hard to get. The reason why I clutch my heart so tightly is because I want to try to look for commitment. The kind that transcends superficial teenage love, the kind that you just know will last forever. I seek for romance and true love. Call it cheesy, but I believe it can exist if we let it.
But more than anything else, I believe that this is not something I can find this early in life - yet. I'm not in a rush. I thoroughly enjoy being single and I am happy with what I have as of now. I stand that everything has it's own time and all will just fall and fit in place when the right moment comes.
Right now, I just have to focus on building that person who I want to be. And I am hopeful that he is doing the same thing so when time comes, we will both know who we are as persons and be ready for whatever else the world throws at us. He doesn't have to be perfect according to the world, cause I definitely know I'm not. He just has to be the perfect one for me. Or you can even just scratch perfect.. Just, the
one for me. :")
Just like any other girl, I dream of simple church wedding in a simple minimalist white gown with a waist-long veil and a garden reception. I dream of a little house in the suburbs with a large lawn and garden where the children can play. I dream of children - two boys whose names would just be single-syllabic so they wouldn't have to struggle with explaining nicknames and consuming time to write long names on exams. I dream of a loving golden retriever to complete the family and I dream of having a long, happy marriage.
And just an additional thought.. wouldn't it be nice to be asked by your child who your first true love was, and instead of rummaging through old pictures, all you have to do is point at the man sitting on your living room couch? =)
I know, sappy. But whatever. And as of now, I'll continue dreaming. And waiting. Patiently.
Find your happiness ♥,
M.
